live under pressure

NUTS is a word I use occasionally for things like what I've been wandering in these days.
and LIVE UNDER PRESSURE are words that certainly describe my condition right now.

So, if you know me person to person and seeing me now, then you'll see a hopeless pale and white face with so many reason to cry.
But I'm not crying. I'm trying to keep calm down and just carry on.

I don't want and I don't need to tell you the whole pieces of my story, for it's just gonna make your day worse than it is. But I'll share some of my problems with you.
It will be a good cure and make me keep going forward.

Sooner is better.
That is a phrase my mom said that I should have aware of from long time ago.
Well, here is the story.
About a month ago, I decided to do the audition for my school's "woaah" theatre.
Theater is such an enormous extra curriculum or club in my school that looks so cool from outside. I did the audition before considering my almost-full-booked schedule.
And Alas! They accept my resume and they want to play me for a small character.
But, the thing is. Oh my dear God, my schedule is so sick full!
Later, after so many prayers and advices, I decided to get outta the theatre, but I'm so scared to say that. So I waited a little longer while they told me not to come to the rehearsal for awhile because they had so many characters to play at that time.
But now! Okay, they asked me to play a small character with the rehearsal time till night.
And I have so many other activity that I should considering too.
*Sigh*
I should have to told them. But I just can't do that. I hate assumption because it's just worsen things, but honestly I did have so many assumption that caused me Cortisol reaction adds stress like now.

There's nothing that seems I could do than just remain still and do what should I do wholeheartedly.
For in everything you do, never do it halfheartedly. You'll find yourself on the edge of a cliff if you guilty.
Remain calm when you live under so many pressure.
Eat some Ice cream, bars of chocolate, watch glee, go shopping or do many useful activities to reduce your stress are advices. But I do have so many activities that I couldn't handle them all by myself. So what? just surrender it all to God (For I have faith in God) and don't mind it too bad!
There is always something I could learn from my daily story :)
So! Keep breathing and living your life!