Bittersweet Symphony

Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life ..
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll
take you down to the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that
takes you to places where all the veins meet

No change, I can change, I
can change, I can change,Where all the veins meet yeah,But I’m here in my mould
, I am here in my mould.But I’m a million different people from one day to the
next...

Well I've never prayed,
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah.
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah.
I let
the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now.
But the airwaves
are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

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Those are lyrics from song bittersweet symphony which is performed by the verve in late 1990s. And it became the soundtrack for the cruel intentions movies. It was a hit back then, and such a marvelous work I think :)

I love the song so much, especially for the instrument. The orchestra really did their job with wonderful.

Life indeed is sometimes tastes so bitter, and in the other time so sweet.
But mostly, we just come to think bout life when it's the bitter one.
However, many of the sweet times come along with bitter part in it.

Music things are one I always considered and love so much.
I'm not always like things I could do only, but also things I can't do.
Like playing music isn't my skill but my delightful one.
While playing instrument is something forbidden by my mother (we've got migran),
sing is one I could do :)
I sing whenever I sad, tired, boring, joyful, grateful, fallin in love with somebody, or just whenever I like. In a right time of course.

Well, it's like what I've been in these days : UNDER PRESSURE, I keep to sing and it helps me to not gettin crazy. Music has been my favourite cure since I don't even remember when.
I like to hear classic, soul, rock, pop, jazz, or just anything that's good in ryhtm and flowing harmony. It's a bitter thing too to know that I'm the one who broke my own voice.
I didn't really understand too how much I need my voice till it didn't work as usual anymore and I got so confused cause when I sing to throw away my problems, I get another problem when I hate my own voice.
It happens about months ago and now my voice is in a sensitive-case. Hitherto I'm trying for not eat anything that has a risk to harm my voice :)

Yeah, those are what make this life has the bitter and the sweet taste.
Even though it's a sad thing when a happiness comes along with problems.
I don't really understand with what I'm writing about too, maybe it's just a way of mine to throw away problems from my mind. Not a very sane idea too, for it's wasting my time, but it's a way better than to be drunk with sadness :)

VICTORY THROUGH SURRENDER : IT'S REAL!

Well, just yesterday I posted about being live under pressure.
And my conclusion yesterday are between surrender and have faith.
So I did surrender and still steadfast in God, and thanks Jesus Christ!
I have outta all my problems today! What a freedom I have today :)
It's FUN to have BREAK FREE !

Considering the last story I wrote here, I'll write how my theatrical problem solved!
From this morning, I've been wandering about what should I choose for today's activity because of my crashed schedule. Actually I wanna go to visit my sick friend and attend my community cell, but all my hours are grabbed by the theatre rehearsal time.
And I do need to get outta that theatre. Being a theatrical actress is not my future focus.

I'm more to be a businesswoman :)

So, back to the story!
I was afraid with the captain (freaky-freaky boy) and coach of the theatre.
It's true. I'm not such an adventurous-hot-blooded gal.
And if you saw my latest tweets and fb's stats then you'd see me as a stupid and fool gal!

I waited till my 3rd break just to speak with the captain and ALAS! that's pretty easy! Well, he's kinda mad with me but hitherto I'm so happy now for they've let me go. For they can do nothing if I don't want to join them. I just realized that I didn't make any resume to join them as a club, but I just joined them as a part of festival! What a relieve :) Now I know something really clever. an ASSUMPTION is just NOTHING but a whole-cake of FOOLISHNESS! I waited so long just to say that I wanna quit for nothing?! yes that's certainly correct!

Just surrender all to God (if you have faith once again!) like what the bible said in the Ecclesiastes 3:11 :
He (God) has made everything right in its time; but he has made their hearts without knowledge, so that man is unable to see the works of God, from the first to the last.